im still fantasising about my post-kayaking-oh-so-gorgeous-tan
although my neck got burnt.
faints.
meeting ms yanti later to talk one-to-one about my grp's wr.
good luck for econs test tmr and phy SPA this fri! ;)
Saturday, August 25, 2007
dammit.
gonna be utter random today so bear with me
my pee stinks of coffee
and i still cant understand why the cappo at nlb study lounge taste so like normal kopi outside
and 60 cents leh
kayaking was damn fun lah
haha
the sun, the sand, the wind, and me!!
weee x)
seems like the WHOLE of OAC seems to say that chix likes zoe (uh i not creating scandal ok)
deborah was the first..then his indie fren, then sumore..was eugene one of them?
i dunwanna part with those memories of mine
the salty sea breeze blowing through my hair
ahh the relief..the pure bliss.
op and wr has to spoil everything lah
and i dammn effing tired
and brain dead
which was partly enjoying and at the same time PAINFUL
cuz we're doing OP.
john was mugging (in nlb also.i guessed so but nobody was listening to me babble)
and adi.ha ha ha.very smart.and community-loving.more like wanna meet perlin lah.
aiya.why at that time when we really needed the whole group?
and the DAMMN marked WR that WE WERE SUPPOSE TO HAVE TODAY
okokokok
cool it man
ur'e going to fall sick again if your temper rises too fast
did i even have a temper?
argh.bloody hell.
so we sat on the same couch.
chris was playing with animation
while i was trying my the very best to think straight again
to continue editing the script (i TRIED ok.my poor poor brain is too exhausted to listen)
and lisze aiyo nO!! not like that its like this and i trying to continue
and the three of us laughing
and laughing..
and laughing.....
wahaha.so funny.EVERYTHING is funny.
im (more like i was) pigging out on hundreds and thousands.
freaking dammn hungry after i got back.
i wanna sleep.
qj used chix's phone to msg me some mushy stuf
that i mistook for soot or whoever playing with chix phone again
paiseh ah
and soot
the fat still didnt come off :)
i paid for the doughnuts okay
so shuddup
hahhahaha
honeydew and cheese..ooooOOooooOOoo
floating in your stomach
muhahha
*coughs*
*sniffs*
yawns.
i TOLD you so that im like freaking random.and rubbish.
so go to sleep.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Because of You by Kelly ClarksonI will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Never cut what can be untied.
rushing my eom.
damn hell.
too little time
too many things.
you've gotta grow stronger.
Friday, August 17, 2007
read.spread.scandalise all you want for I do not care.
and im sorry if i don't feel victimised at all.
to readers of this blog:
If you feel that this is Gossip buffet,
feel free and take what you wish
but a word of advice
dont' be too greedy.
taking more than your stomach capacity can and will
rupture you for good :)
A game which started out innocently
blazed into a tryst of romantical politics:
Fear, i who have escaped
will not escape unscathed.
Since it has reached a point of saturation
I have ended the game.
game-over.k.o.
Are you wishing that i'm sore over it?
over your dead body, mister.
No wonder friends from other schools can hate their classes..
but sadly. I don't.
just plain disappointment. at their behaviour.
and even if someone's pet phrase is "dumbdumb"
anyone can use it.
There's no point in wanting to prove anything
because there is nothing to prove in the first place.
If you really wanted to destroy my pride, ego, morality or whatever you call it
you need not dilly-dally and stall time
just get straight to the point.
I think I finally understood girls-
never mess with them.
Not because they're sassy or bitchy
it's because their other half
which you wouldn't like to unleash
is the Devil's incarnate.
You can say that im being long-winded and not saying stuff straight
but.
i've said my piece.
I wouldnt want to see friendships destroyed by jealousy
if it was present in the first place.
come on people.
grow up already.
BUT before you leave in a huff
who doesn't like a big juicy scandal that invovles
two guys?!
one from OAC the other from Library (i proud of my cca ok)
even i will be interested if im not invovled in the first place.
and im sorry to those who are directly and indirectly invovled in this shit
soo ming and zhi quan.
don't try too hard if you want something.
be it love someone, or destroy another.
and sorry to zoe, ferena, lisze and whoever who read those messages
which appeared magically out of nowhere into sooming's phone
for ruining your appetite
or having warped ideas.
AND.
Please study for promos :)
Thursday, August 16, 2007
The Road to Resilience
do the things you enjoy doing.that helps you relax.
been so emo this morning.
i couldnt believe that i could have suicidal thoughts.ever.
i thought i was a coward.
i was afraid of the pain.the blood.
no.
because to stand up and face life
takes the biggest courage ever
have i not felt the love that everyone has for me
i think
i would have lost hope.
but i read.that people are like stained-glass windows.
it is only when darkness falls
can one see their inner beauty when a small light glows from within.
thank buddha.
i cannot be anymore grateful.
last night.
i pictured the destruction that could have taken place.
i saw the loss.
and no matter how much i struggled
buddha.you held me so tight.
made sure that i didn't totally lose control.
even when i was on the brink of collapsing
i still thought of the consequences if i destroyed all i have in front of me.
i never on my life
want that to happen.
count and thank my lucky stars
and guardian angel
that has never lost faith in me.
The darkest hour of any man's life is when he sits down to plan how to get money without earning it. (Horace Greeley)
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
*gacks* before i die of MSG dehydration gotta tell you guys out there to start planning for promos. *helping hj to publicise* PROMOS IN LESS THAN 6 WEEKS so...ciao.won't be posting for a loongg time. meanwhile..tc and drink lotsa water. gambate!!
Monday, August 13, 2007
was it just a coincidence
that im wearing a yellow, heart sutra tshirt on the first day of the 7th Lunar month?
in any case.
i got stepped in my face over and over with my pride flailing like some weak tentacles of a Portugese jellyfish after it got stabbed (and the jelly oozing out.)
that sec 3 or 4 boy..living in my block..from bedok..green?
he's just eye-candy.i think ver will throw aloy aside like some ragdoll for him.
and ma just had to..
he's like so tall
and handsome too
just look at his face (implying pimple-less,spotless)
*steam unconciously pouring out of my ears*
uhh..yea.
i've got more than my pride to worry about, like for instance pw wr.
who cares about pride.
or maybe i do.
just a..teeny weeny bit.
sighs.
dammit.and now she's wailing about me not doing work but just pw.
and saying dunno what if this mornin's talk with mr fun all went to waste.
my foot.
im not going to retain.
over my dead body i swear.
Friday, August 10, 2007
havent been blogging so damn long.
sighs.
well at least we completed most of WR.
NLB.5 hours straight.
for once.had so much gossip about chix's group in one serving.
anyway.nothing can beat walking around with a group of...hmm..ok.
people.if that is what you call the concoction of me,chix,soot and darren.
only few things i can clearly rmb today.
soot: you're always so stubborn..so stubborn..(refering to chix)
chix: OKOK my fault lah OK? Next time I will be a good leader and do all the things myself.
yea right chix..i'll see you through that if you survive.
darren: don't know, don't care (or at least that was what he meant.darren ah.chix cares for you like a son.be more...醒目can?)
ver and loosa was doin wr.and the 3 resting.well.they have done their part.i think.
my sliced up thumb isnt healing.esp when i typed so much today.isnt helping at all.
its the small simple joys in life that I seem to appreciate better.
chix..hmm.i'll consider.c'mon.its like we just met today.don't expect me to know so much at first glance.haha.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
i keep bumping into him so often today
that i think its not funny
that it's not a coincidence.
have you ever wondered why
sometimes the person that you don't want to see or irritates you most
is the person who keeps appearing right in front of you.
im suffering from blurred vision and fatigue.