sighs..
*sneezes in an absolutely explosive manner*
dammit.i must have picked a nerve ending when i was trying to remove blackheads..
there aint much of today that i want to remember.
partly because i didnt do anything fun...and partly because i didnt have fun doing those things.
its my break...and im wasting it.
morning..went back to ahs.mentoring briefing.waited 1/2 hr for chin an..left at 10.
didnt have the heart to do theory..although i badly needed it to be completed asap.ms sim's coming next week.
haven't prepared mentoring stuff..even though i drew out a rough sketch of monday's lesson.
faqi class ended at 7.45 plus+...and i rushed down.
damn.i was pissed...cant rmb at who.
most likely at myself though.we were supposed to be out spending the last day in wherever whatever shopping centre prior to tmr's gst hike..
ended up in 六和園. in a pretty foul mood.not foul..but moody.
things aside.
my pics x)
.........................
omg.i think i AM in a really foul mood now.
blogger ISNt uploading my photos.
think i better get off before i go..crazy.
bad luck comes...good luck goes.
Friday, June 29, 2007
I would like to think that
after today's concluded JCTs
I would have already woken up
when I should have long ago.
Although now i dont feel pissed anymore for what had happened
I still wanna say this
I will make sure you SWALLOW your words whole
and I'll make you so sorry on you life that you've prayed that you never ever said that
after I ace 3 out of 5 subjects or probably more.
I can't imagine how sensitive she can get
when I just said that I was utterly digusted by the econs case study question today
I kept saying yah im so disgusted cuz I personally don't like the property market
which in fact I really don't cuz I just feel so revolted thinking about the prices and stuff
then she went like BAMM headshot
and I fell over the cliff
THANKS for completely RUINING the start of my post-cts break.
I'll never forget that.
But probably I'll forgive.
>Filed all my stuff.well..not all.finished with the math and physics file.gahh.im like so bloody tired but i felt kinda like numb...since i didnt have the mood to continue burning more songs into my lap and transfering into K3. i dont even have the mood to go read my manga lah.wth.i cant believe that my holiday mood has just been utterly demolished by who-the-hell-did-this-to-me.
But she's right.I cant wait till I'm one foot in the grave before wailing and flailing my arms in search for desperate help.
I still want to enjoy my break nonetheless.
I feel so bloody screwed.
signing off: 1236am
Sunday, June 24, 2007
this is my 50th post.
Happy 50th Anniversary to my blog!
gahh.
i've recently developed a liking for bleach and fma.
besides my frequent doses of naruto anime and another new recent Saint Beast something anime.
It's tommorow.
Well.look on the bright side.
Your papers arent that cramp, and u still have time to catch up.
Stop worrying already.
Somehow i agree with wr.
If only i could understand benzene faster..
(PS: All you 1st intakers friends: Good luck for JCT's and do YOUR best!! All 06/07 ppl too...jiayou!)
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
GAHH.
just before i wanted to blog
i flipped my nail clippings on the floor.
so pissed with myself.found the 2 thumbnails already tough..uh i mean clippings.yea.
I've suddenly come to realise that i am exactly 4 days away from my JCTs.
which are supposingly freaky.and scary.
I cant comprehend "Failure" anymore. Am i what Ms neha calls numb-to-failure?
I dunno.I've been working my guts(er somehow) out these few days rushing to complete the Matrix Math assignment.
Which i suppose most of my class didnt do.as usual.
they must be too busy mugging to care about some compulsory math assignment.
yeaa right.i just don't have the time so im trying to revise with those damn difficult questions.
which, i'm left with Calculus.
am i to say..what a relief?
not so.
i've got too many things to blog about..the sky (which i have nvr got a chance to get those photos down into the com before i erase them cuz they're too stagnant) , my cranberry-apple Heinz baby food (stop staring at me) and the fun i had with my American nieces. and how sweet of Alison and Kelly to hug me this morning before she left x)
Im going to miss them.
Going to miss all of this.
Cuz when school reopens..
Its back to reality again.
I hate to say that i dread returning.
But I do.
The impernance of events just...blows me off balance sometimes.
I'll just have to..re-adapt and reconcile.
Wait.I shouldnt be up so late.
Im supposed to adjust my bio-clock back to 10-6.
I guess it's abit late though.
Tired but not sleepy=still no sleep.
I hope no one realises that I've spilt my nail clippings all over the place in the morning.
and my anime vids are taking forever to download.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
this may be a long post.haha.wells.i havent been blogging very recently though.
yesterday was a really meaningful one.i didnt expect any of my saturdays to be that..productive and insightful. woke up like 7 then went down to fky to do 早课 for the last day of children camp.well..i have been doing 铃鼓 for these 3 consec days since thurs and my 九钟十五鼓 kept screwing up(either i didnt hit any one of them or i just missed one/two beats).it was terrible lah. probably i was over-conscious that i would screw up...so i really did.and partly becuz i wasnt really concentrating.gahh.but..the 早课 just consisting of 佛号 was pure bliss.
my pass thoughts and emotions kept flooding in like floodgates left loosely open.
i thought i would lose control somehow...becuz...well..not all those thoughts are pure, right?
but suprisingly.after we stopped for the first meditation break.i had no problems concentrating.it felt oddly refreshing.the second tide came in..and this time no more lurid thoughts.just 佛号.
and just becuz of that...i thought that my saturday morning for once wasnt all about kids central.and slacking, of course.
went back...prepared for tuition.i dreaded for 2pm to come.actually i wasnt officially included in ytd's class..cuz chan said last thurs it was for the rafflesians only.and i got called into the room for the after-class-rafflesian meeting too?! hahaha.celeste kept pestering me to remind chan i wasnt a rafflesian for god's sake.but i thought..better to keep it that way.i would benefit from extra classes too,you know.
reached there 5 mins before class started.chan was like "go outside and wait..maths is finishing in 5 mins time" and met eva outside.kept lamenting to her how sleepy i was and she kept laughing as usual.haha.
as class proceeded..i kept doing and asking(well..not always asking though) questions..and quite shocked myself that for once i actually picked up the circular motion ws(last thurs) to do when edwin stopped teaching for a moment.even though it was only part a).but it was the initiative.
i wasnt like that in the past.probably something got inside my head.the right way it did, though.
chan dragged it till 3.45 plus.and i went like shit-im-going-to-be-late-but-im-actually-not cuz i told shifu i'll be there at 4.30 latest. clare kept confirming time with me.hahas.lols.
gahh.we started 晚课 at 5.30 plus cuz the parent were in 大殿 listening to thier kids sharing session.the thought of screwing up my 九钟十五鼓 didnt cross my mind this time though.and i didnt screw up at all!! was in control of the 铃鼓 this time round.my hand-brain coordination didnt give way too.i was damn happy lah.like i won 4D or sth.but better.haha.told clare after the 晚课.and ma too.weeh x) mission accomplished.
today.flicked on kc after music.wth.it was transformers to go with my wonderful lunch.why?!
%&$^#@*&
pissed.but didnt have anything else to watch during 1230.i did with transformers.
guessed it was jinxed or sth.(it has somthing got to do with FATHER'S DAY.yikess!!)
the episode was about the main guy(or boy?) spike(spyke?) invented this new robot he wanted to make an Autobot (greenhorns: Autobots are the good guys.Decepticons are the baddies). he pulled the plug, and this crazy bot went berserk.blasted everything he saw in the lab.then opti prime came and blahblah..settled.
Prime (1), Crazybot (0).
Spike said "didnt expect him to turn into a metal Frankenstein(sp?)".
*fillers in the middle*
Spikey-boy met with accident while riding in his trusty pal Bumblebee(its an Autobot,ppl). Megatron shot him lah.went hosp, doc said need to transfer his conscious state of mind elswhere while operations done on him. (how fictiatious can fiction get?! just dont understand sometimes)
*lightbulb* Autobots suggest to transfer Spike into the crazy bot's body during opt.
Spike awakens,finds himself in metal body, shock-confusion-denial-hatred destuction ensues.
*sighs*
Dad consoles him,Spike returns to himself.unstable emotions.watched Frankenstein the motion picture.(gahh.wth) empathy for Franky, blahblah boom-kaboom again.
Bumblebee and Dad gives chase.
Got brainwashed by Megatron to join the dark side.agreed and nearly shot his Dad off the cliff when Dad told him "those are your friends.why are you hurting them??". suddenly realised that it WAS his Dad.saved him with a robotic arm.woke up to his senses.(finally.)
transfered back to boy's body, Spike hugs Dad,*huggs*.
"Family still comes before friends no matter how close the friends can be to you. It is only one related by blood that could, have a higher possibility of waking one's conscience. It's true that peer influence could be effective, but the bonds forged with a family is always there in times of sorrow and joy."
Happy Father's Day to all Dads.Know that you are being appreciated, but sometimes the love that you potray may not seem as obvious; don't let that stop your love for your family.
Monday, June 11, 2007
ok.
my blogskin just screwed up.
my beautiful beautiful "Somewhere over the sky" is replaced with a lil' (cute) froggy and his "Go to Imageshack.com".
gah.
im freaking frustrated and tired of all this.
this will end.
but when?
JCT's are around the corner.and i haven..well..not haven..but not really in depth for my mugging and stuff.
sighs.
be strong.because you know you will stand up to a fight.and win.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
yawns.
tjcl camp was over.last night.phew.
we had great fun.even though i slightly disagree with yt and edwin that the camp was lame.
i mean even if it was lame
i think i really had the time.
anyway.i was so freaking happy.
i watched "Spirited Away".weeeh x)
it was uber touching.and reallly sweet too.bah.haha.
back to reality too fast though.
today,i have tuition at one.and only back home at 3+.
and BOY.im tired.*yawns*
saw chen ee this mornin.i see she's really into like mugging and stuff.
and then i look at myself.
oh shit.i have a long way to catch up.really.
which is why i made that vow.yeaah.
oh have i blogged about the surveys we did?
oo how fun.that was a really enriching day.
alright..that'll be in the next post.
well..rest well for those who are sick.
the damn viruses around are making everyone fall flat.
Friday, June 01, 2007
this blog is a mirror.
it is not a place for indiscriminate disposal at will
it is a sanctuary of hidden peace
where thoughts and emotions are reflected
A mirror.
-kaori daisho