happy 60th post to mee ;)
im not happy at all.
told cj that im losing her.
more like losing it.my mind, that is.
my sunday times horoscope advised me to "deal with your jealousy cautiously"
how cautious should i be.
told cj to forget it. cuz i seriously may not be the one for her.
but why does it still irritate me to see her with him?
f..
no.i shant say it.arrgh.frustrated.
dunno what to do now.going off for tuition soon.
i told cj i knew that i may lose her even before i manage to get her.
how true is that.
so true it hurts.
got lots of other stuff to worry about besides that.
told myself not to bother about my confused feelings.
just that i saw it again ytd.AGAIN.
went up to 2nd flr of lib to find jj...saw her with him when i was coming down.
at a 2 ppl table..the one that i n jj wanted to sit to throw stalker off.
smiling...at him.
i dont hate anyone.
i dont have any grudges against anyone.
in particular him. cuz i cant blame fate at all.
wth.speaking shit.
this morning agn.
fer tried to make them sit 2gt.
then i sat beside her.
me.her.him.
nothing else to say.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
advice to someone
whom i know
before its too late for him
or you if you know who you areThe most insignificant people are those most apt to sneer at others. They have no hope of rising in their own esteem but by lowering their neighbour's. (William Hazlitt) anyway.i got back HPDH.stomach flu just came ytd.for no rhyme and reason.2nd best way to make a guy go down to his knees. im off to make my life better.cuz im' gonna enjoy it.even thoughregrets a manyi shant say 我为何不先下手为强.if fate denies my union with her..let it be.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
sista jahmie and me!! vesak'o7
anyway.
i am still here to tell everyone that
i absolutely LOVED HPOP the moviee x)
ron: how was it?
harry: wet
ron and hermy: *exploded into giggles*
ahh.his first kiss.when will be mine?
i havent been blogging.for a long time.
yea.
been really busy lately.
EoM, dealing with troublesome ppl, school, not coping with my schedule.
EoM.what a nightmare.
i tried to like complete it at popo's place today.
i couldnt.
partly becuz i was totally uninterested
and partly becuz i thought i desevered a good break.
but..probably not considering the fact that my parents are meeting my tutors and the P soon since i cmi-ed for JCTs.oh there we go again...
now that i've mentioned that i cmi-ed for JCTs...i shouldn't be blogging.
not at all.
sighs.its just the not-concentrating and fatigue spells that keep detering me from what im supposed to do then take a break.
more like after a break i still want more breaks.
sighs.
cant i be a lil more like jj?
i thought i've changed.seem like it will take more work to change than it seems.
anyway.gahh.why isit everytime that i want to blog.i keep forgetting what i really wanted to say.
yanti like wants the 1st EoM draft tmr.which apparently i've started.
with much difficulty.
i screwed today's econ's lec test when i knew i would be able to answer.
just that i gave the wrong stuff that the test didnt require at first.
then i cancelled the darn whole thing.gahh.
ohwells.gotta do better next time.
zo and liang ponned the half of today.
and zo didnt reply my sms in the morn about her being late again.-_-''
sighs.
wahh.its like 7.50 nearing 8.
i better run.
bye..
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
as i was just saying
then ma appeared
seeing that i was on the com again
she buay tahan
just had to open that mouth of hers
i can't get angry.cuz i've changed.
i just 无可奈何 thats all.nth much.
anyways.haha.sth really funny happened on my way home.
*walking down from overhead bridge*
girl: Hey!! I know you. Arent you from Anglican high last time too??
me: *completely stunned* uhh....yeah
girl: I know i know!! you are..wenxin right?
me: *looks more confused*uh haha no
girl: what's your name?
me: weixin
me: how did you get to know me?
girl: ohoh you're wenxin, same class as wenyong last year right??
me: yeah same class.and you are?
girl: im elisa.
me: ohh...i think i know who you are (like as if.haha.i was a fluke.but..maybe elisa that name invoked deja vu...)
girl: where do you stay?
me: *thinking wth she's up to* oh just opposite st'anthonys
girl: oh..opposite st'anthonys (giving me the yeah-right-i-believe-you look)
girl: last time my mum says she sees you everyday at your house there.
me: serious? *trying my best to look interested*
girl: yahh
me: hahas..alright bye! see you
girl: bye! see you
i was caught off guard.then i finally figured out how i suddenly seemed so popular (her guy friend walking with her looked embarrased when she suddenly stopped me in my tracks).
her mum (aka nosey ah-soh) must have seen me everyday (when i dun even know who the hell is she) last year and told her daugther (aka ms suprised-the-hell-outta-me elisa) then her daughter (aka nancy drew wannabe) whipped out her Anglican yearbook and told her mum to find who this guy is. then she realises im in the same class as wenyong (i dunno how she knows wenyong.wenyong knows alot of girls though) which explains why she knew i was in the same class as wenyong.
hah!! my deduction skills are like..unsurpassable.
i think im starting to sound like the nancy drew wannabe..
i've decided to cancel off those mean words.cuz im not mean.haha.
oh wells.gtg.
good luck zo x) best wishes for getting into exco!!
i've finally come to a decision
that im going to live my life
the way i want it to be
and not be controlled by fate
but to control fate itself.
i can't stand there and see myself deprecate
into the depths of procrastination and self-pity
i shall stand up.
stand for myself.
not for anyone else.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
..
sista is leaving tmr.for...good?
fate didn't want to retain her.it's part of a new beginning.
didn't get to play badminton with her before she leaves.
didn't get to return a nice meal before she leaves.
didn't get to tell her everything i want to before she leaves.
and she is going to leave tmr.
i will miss you.sister.
dun fall sick there..everyone is worried for you.
hope we get to meet each other very soon again..perhaps during your winter and summer hols?
i'll be waiting for your return.
thanks for everything you did for me.
smile.a tear crinkling down your face will ruin her happiness.buddha bless always..jamie
Sunday, July 01, 2007
i shall try again.the word here is *try*...its working!!anyway..while waiting.yay.im happy today.haha.
so sweet.aww..got these cuties at a wedding dinner
me.boss.fel.wee x) (same night of wedding)
gahh.too dark.its me rex and fel!! performing jay's 聼媽媽的話reprise
sista,snoopy,me!! vesak'o7sorrriie...i gtg.going vivo to shop!!woohoo!! be back with more exciting photos *eyes sparkling*meanwhile..enjoy! x)