happy 60th post to mee ;)
im not happy at all.
told cj that im losing her.
more like losing it.my mind, that is.
my sunday times horoscope advised me to "deal with your jealousy cautiously"
how cautious should i be.
told cj to forget it. cuz i seriously may not be the one for her.
but why does it still irritate me to see her with him?
f..
no.i shant say it.arrgh.frustrated.
dunno what to do now.going off for tuition soon.
i told cj i knew that i may lose her even before i manage to get her.
how true is that.
so true it hurts.
got lots of other stuff to worry about besides that.
told myself not to bother about my confused feelings.
just that i saw it again ytd.AGAIN.
went up to 2nd flr of lib to find jj...saw her with him when i was coming down.
at a 2 ppl table..the one that i n jj wanted to sit to throw stalker off.
smiling...at him.
i dont hate anyone.
i dont have any grudges against anyone.
in particular him. cuz i cant blame fate at all.
wth.speaking shit.
this morning agn.
fer tried to make them sit 2gt.
then i sat beside her.
me.her.him.
nothing else to say.