this may be a long post.haha.wells.i havent been blogging very recently though.
yesterday was a really meaningful one.i didnt expect any of my saturdays to be that..productive and insightful. woke up like 7 then went down to fky to do 早课 for the last day of children camp.well..i have been doing 铃鼓 for these 3 consec days since thurs and my 九钟十五鼓 kept screwing up(either i didnt hit any one of them or i just missed one/two beats).it was terrible lah. probably i was over-conscious that i would screw up...so i really did.and partly becuz i wasnt really concentrating.gahh.but..the 早课 just consisting of 佛号 was pure bliss.
my pass thoughts and emotions kept flooding in like floodgates left loosely open.
i thought i would lose control somehow...becuz...well..not all those thoughts are pure, right?
but suprisingly.after we stopped for the first meditation break.i had no problems concentrating.it felt oddly refreshing.the second tide came in..and this time no more lurid thoughts.just 佛号.
and just becuz of that...i thought that my saturday morning for once wasnt all about kids central.and slacking, of course.
went back...prepared for tuition.i dreaded for 2pm to come.actually i wasnt officially included in ytd's class..cuz chan said last thurs it was for the rafflesians only.and i got called into the room for the after-class-rafflesian meeting too?! hahaha.celeste kept pestering me to remind chan i wasnt a rafflesian for god's sake.but i thought..better to keep it that way.i would benefit from extra classes too,you know.
reached there 5 mins before class started.chan was like "go outside and wait..maths is finishing in 5 mins time" and met eva outside.kept lamenting to her how sleepy i was and she kept laughing as usual.haha.
as class proceeded..i kept doing and asking(well..not always asking though) questions..and quite shocked myself that for once i actually picked up the circular motion ws(last thurs) to do when edwin stopped teaching for a moment.even though it was only part a).but it was the initiative.
i wasnt like that in the past.probably something got inside my head.the right way it did, though.
chan dragged it till 3.45 plus.and i went like shit-im-going-to-be-late-but-im-actually-not cuz i told shifu i'll be there at 4.30 latest. clare kept confirming time with me.hahas.lols.
gahh.we started 晚课 at 5.30 plus cuz the parent were in 大殿 listening to thier kids sharing session.the thought of screwing up my 九钟十五鼓 didnt cross my mind this time though.and i didnt screw up at all!! was in control of the 铃鼓 this time round.my hand-brain coordination didnt give way too.i was damn happy lah.like i won 4D or sth.but better.haha.told clare after the 晚课.and ma too.weeh x) mission accomplished.
today.flicked on kc after music.wth.it was transformers to go with my wonderful lunch.why?!
%&$^#@*&
pissed.but didnt have anything else to watch during 1230.i did with transformers.
guessed it was jinxed or sth.(it has somthing got to do with FATHER'S DAY.yikess!!)
the episode was about the main guy(or boy?) spike(spyke?) invented this new robot he wanted to make an Autobot (greenhorns: Autobots are the good guys.Decepticons are the baddies). he pulled the plug, and this crazy bot went berserk.blasted everything he saw in the lab.then opti prime came and blahblah..settled.
Prime (1), Crazybot (0).
Spike said "didnt expect him to turn into a metal Frankenstein(sp?)".
*fillers in the middle*
Spikey-boy met with accident while riding in his trusty pal Bumblebee(its an Autobot,ppl). Megatron shot him lah.went hosp, doc said need to transfer his conscious state of mind elswhere while operations done on him. (how fictiatious can fiction get?! just dont understand sometimes)
*lightbulb* Autobots suggest to transfer Spike into the crazy bot's body during opt.
Spike awakens,finds himself in metal body, shock-confusion-denial-hatred destuction ensues.
*sighs*
Dad consoles him,Spike returns to himself.unstable emotions.watched Frankenstein the motion picture.(gahh.wth) empathy for Franky, blahblah boom-kaboom again.
Bumblebee and Dad gives chase.
Got brainwashed by Megatron to join the dark side.agreed and nearly shot his Dad off the cliff when Dad told him "those are your friends.why are you hurting them??". suddenly realised that it WAS his Dad.saved him with a robotic arm.woke up to his senses.(finally.)
transfered back to boy's body, Spike hugs Dad,*huggs*.
"Family still comes before friends no matter how close the friends can be to you. It is only one related by blood that could, have a higher possibility of waking one's conscience. It's true that peer influence could be effective, but the bonds forged with a family is always there in times of sorrow and joy."
Happy Father's Day to all Dads.Know that you are being appreciated, but sometimes the love that you potray may not seem as obvious; don't let that stop your love for your family.